So, I dedicated about 7 or 8 years of my life on writing and comics. I did a web comic for about three years. But I’m not sure breaking into comics via the web is going to be viable. I think I would have to A) become an illustrator or B)write prolifically and hope someone reaches out to me to collaborate a comic.
In the meantime, I”m not sure what I will do. Because my sleep has been so bad lately that I haven’t even had the energy or drive to write or draw or even doodle most days.
This blog has been a lot of my opinions, and maybe that’s the problem. Maybe the blog is all about me, when I could be writing articles that would be useful to someone (preferably you, reader).
I looked up some web publishing for short stories and chapter books.
But the first story I wrote was rejected, and not for the reasons I would’ve thought. So I may put it up here, with samples of my writing. That being said, I need a portfolio of my paintings, not all of them, just a few. I don’t know how timing will work, but in two years I want this to be in part, a portfolio website.
In writing there is a lot of gatekeeping. Publishers, social media, all tell the same basic story. If you disagree or often a different story, they don’t discredit you or blackball you traditionally. They shadow block your posts so no one see them, or make sure you’re not on the top 10 on the search engine results, or even the top 100.
Saying that, I don’t think that even a blog is viable anymore. But I’m disabled. As long as I’m working, I can’t be self-employed, start a business, or make more than I think $1180 a month. That’s all income. Including royalties. So I’m stuck. I can’t use my talent or gifts to make money. Now, that should be very freeing for most people. But for me, I feel like I’m wasting years of my life when I could be accumulating career credits, or even just moving up in my field. Disability is a trap. You get insurance, but you can’t have a career. Since I can’t provide for a wife or a family, I can’t have either. I don’t want to be a baby-daddy. I want to be a father. Or at least a husband. That’s not looking good right now..
So, I heard a different translation of one of my favorite verses.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding, in all your ways, seek His face, and He will direct your paths”
Which I normally read as,”Trust in the Lord.. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths”
Maybe I’ve not been seeking God’s face and counsel. Well, maybe that should change.
-Trem